Wow.. I’ve been off the “meat wagon” since February 21st, which was my birthday. Eating carbohydrates really, pardon my language here, fuck with my mind and body. I’m sitting here depressed beyond belief. I would imagine this is related, at least in part, to a feeling of failure. The last time I engaged in eating of carbs, I spent 3 weeks in a downward spiral and felt similarly mentally. I’ve no idea why I allow(ed) this to happen. Of course, the birthday excuse is the original reason behind the derailment, because YOU GOTTA HAVE CAKE on your birthday. 

After allowing yourself that “one thing”, the slippery slope just gets more and more slick. In a short time, it’s difficult to regain control.

Anyway, recovery mode is now engaged.

Here's the size tag from the largest pair of sweats I currently own and wear, in spite of the fact they are FAR FAR FAR too large. I think these sweats are probably 6 years old by now, if not more. My wife insists I look ridiculous in them. I know she’s right. This is NOT the largest size I’ve ever worn and when I first got them they were snug.
 
For some reason I still own them. They are so large on me that if I could dance like @MCHammer I could dance in his #YouCantTouchThis video. One of these days I’ll have to do something about owning them.
 
 I’m currently wearing a pair of 3XL Reebok sweat wicking gym pants that are also too big. I only keep wearing them to hide the hanging crap on my body. If I wore tighter clothes the leftover skin would be far too obvious.

“How many times did I attempt to ‘lose weight’ over my lifetime?” This is a question that gets asked from time to time. The truth is that no one, other than the person the question being directed has, has ever really considered the answer. Even some medical professionals haven’t taken this into account. In the past, the medical establishment failed to see the full picture and only saw the disease.
 
The answer to this, for me, is more than I can remember.  I have been through everything from parental enforced calorie and time restrictions, to Weight Watchers, Slim Fast, Paleo, low carb high fat, supplements, simply “willing the fat to ‘go away’, hitting the gym to eat and carnivory.
 
Now, it’s time to dispense with the names and get down to what really matters, because, in the end, labels mean nothing.
 
The idea is to put things into your body that support your health and fitness goals. It is really that simple. That said, the simple then becomes complex, due to the limitless choices out there, some of which I’ve already mentioned. So, eat for optimal health and the rest will surely follow.
 
#yes2meat 

WOW! Ittbeen a long long road th get here. Hopped on the scale this morning, totally expecting to still be 330+. Much to my surprise, I heard 329 pounds.